The becoming of the unbecoming

“With any

luck

we’ll never find

the things

that we are

looking

for

and,

instead

we become

them.”

Jarod Wabick

Okay wowww. I’m a beautiful writer. Sheesh. I fucking love myself. What a journey. I was just looking back, reading all my blogs and look! Look how far we’ve come! I’m so so so proud of myself. I’m in love with myself, I care about me. I’m happy.

The growth has been massive. And I always say this, that I’m very thankful for the growth, all the growth, my growth. Emotionally, and spiritually too ig. There is not a day that goes by without me thinking just how much I’ve grown. I love myself so much. I love people around me so much. I don’t hold back in expressing my love. I am kind. I am nice to people. This was something I never ever thought I’d be. But I’m kind and nice and loving, everything that I thought was weakness. But only now do I realize just how strong that could make and has made me. It feels amazing to be able to love people. I’ve become so much more confident now. The love I give and the love I receive, man oh man. Fuck hate istg. My love so strong, your hate shackles against it. My peace so protected, your violence deafens. I am thankful.

I’ve done so much in this past year and been so happy with myself compared to all my other years combined. My activism has shot up. So many people text me saying how they are inspired, asking for guidance and support on how to become like me, starting up activism because of me. These messages make your day, trust me. I’m becoming a published co-author! I’ve started playing football again, I’ve started dancing again and I’m not giving up on those this time. I’m not as good as before, not even half as good as I was before, but we’ll become better. We’ll progress, slow and steady, but we’ll make it. Not giving up this time.

Oh but I don’t care about opinions and people tho dammnnnn. Its on a dangerous level, how I can cut off toxic relationships in seconds, know if its going to be toxic and distant, cut people off in the first red signal, never be treated less than what I deserve, the best, and move on easily. I prioritize myself and the right people. Don’t settle for less. But also know, you get what you give. If you want the best, you make people feel the best. Gahh fuck relationship advices.

Take care of yourself broskii.

You can get through this. I love me. I love you. I love. Everything is fucking possible.

Love is a choice btw. Nothing in my life is what I want. I do not like this. But I’m happy.

xx.